Well, I’ve had to put talking in any depth about the deeper mom issues on hold for now.
Right now my prime goal has become to get out of here ASAP. With money & the economy the way it is, I’ve really reached the end of my rope. So my therapist said she’d be willing to make that the focus right now and do whatever she could (suggestion wise) to help me find resources etc. I’m not too comfortable discussing how desperate the situation here has become in this blog but, it’s pretty bad.
It’s difficult to leave a situation like this. I think there is still some of my subconscious that might be making it difficult to get out and I think some of that is being affected by a lot of my mom’s unacknowledged subconscious issues about me (and my brother) moving out.
I am not sure what is going on with my brother at the moment really but he’s done a sort of 180 and has become much more relaxed. So today he was really awesome and sympathetic to me struggling with being in between/out of work. So I have a few more things to try and a bit of a boost to my motivation right now from that and my therapist.
